do I see you…

I found this quote last week:

“Behind the story I tell is the one I don’t… Behind the story you hear is the one I wish I could make you hear.” ― Dorothy Allison

After Sundays service @SandalsChurch I saw the quote differently.  Here is my re-write based on Pastor Matt’s sermon.

Behind the person I want to be is the one I am… Behind the person I see is the one I wish I could make you see.

a source of joy and inspiration

I spent the afternoon alone at disneyland/california adventure. It was great to just walk around and imagine what this next year is going to look like.
On my way out I stop in one of the shops near the grizzly peak. Met these 2 older ladies who wished me a happy birthday and sang a sweet birthday song for me.
As I was walking around the store I noticed this golden yellow t-shirt. This is what was written:

“To all that come to this happy place: welcome. Disneyland is your land. Here age relives fond memories of the past, and here youth may savor the challenge and promise of the future. Disneyland is dedicated to the ideals, the dreams, and the hard facts that have created America… with hope that it will be a source of joy and inspiration to all the world.” -Walt Disney, 1955

It was most definitely that for me today. Thanks.

why do I go about mourning… Ps 43

Send Out Your Light and Your Truth

Vindicate me, O God, and defend my causeagainst an ungodly people,from the deceitful and unjust mandeliver me!

2 For you are the God in whom I take refuge;why have you rejected me?  Why do I go about mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?

3 Send out your light and your truth; let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hilland to your dwelling!

4 Then I will go to the altar of God,to God my exceeding joy,and I will praise you with the lyre,O God, my God.

5 Why are you cast down, O my soul,and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,my salvation and my God.

my christmas music playlist

A Charlie Brown Christmas – Vince Guaraldi Trio

Harry for the Holidays – Harry Connick Jr.

Let it Snow Baby… Let if Reindeer – Relient K

Majesty and Wonder – Phil Keaggy

The Music of Christmas – Steven Curtis Chapman

The Gift – Kenny Rogers

It’s Christmas Time – City on a Hill

Your King Has Come – various artist

Christmas Offerings – Third Day

A Ragamuffin Christmas – Carlos Whittaker

O Holy Night Live: The Prison Show – Sara Groves

The King Has Come: Mystery Advent – Nate Karnes

one last christmas – matthew west

watched this and bald like a baby… so sad but so beautiful.

the 12 days of christmas

i was doing a little research this morning to see if there were any resources for bible reading leading up to Christmas.
this is what i found…
“The Twelve Days of Christmas is probably the most misunderstood part of the church year among Christians who are not part of liturgical church traditions. Contrary to much popular belief, these are not the twelve days before Christmas, but in most of the Western Church are the twelve days from Christmas until the beginning of Epiphany (January 6th; the 12 days count from December 25th until January 5th). In some traditions, the first day of Christmas begins on the evening of December 25th with the following day considered the First Day of Christmas (December 26th). In these traditions, the twelve days begin December 26 and include Epiphany on January 6.

The origin and counting of the Twelve Days is complicated, and is related to differences in calendars, church traditions, and ways to observe this holy day in various cultures (see Christmas). In the Western church, Epiphany is usually celebrated as the time the Wise Men or Magi arrived to present gifts to the young Jesus (Matt. 2:1-12). Traditionally there were three Magi, probably from the fact of three gifts, even though the biblical narrative never says how many Magi came. In some cultures, especially Hispanic and Latin American culture, January 6th is observed as Three Kings Day, or simply the Day of the Kings (Span: la Fiesta de Reyes, el Dia de los Tres Reyes, or el Dia de los Reyes Magos; Dutch: Driekoningendag). Even though December 25th is celebrated as Christmas in these cultures, January 6th is often the day for giving gifts. In some places it is traditional to give Christmas gifts for each of the Twelve Days of Christmas. Since Eastern Orthodox traditions use a different religious calendar, they celebrate Christmas on January 7th and observe Epiphany or Theophany on January 19th.”

want to know more follow the link below

http://www.crivoice.org/cy12days.html

all i want for christmas

i really don’t need a lot or even want a lot this year. but i did come up with 3 things i would like…

1. itunes gift card (for new music)
2. help with my house
3. $500 for a bridal expo booth

this is my grown up christmas list.

no matter what

I’m running back to Your promises one more time
Lord that’s all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why

No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You no matter what, no matter what

When I’m stuck in this nothingness by myself
I’m just sitting in silence
There’s no way I can make it without Your help, I won’t even try it
I know You have Your reasons for everything so I will keep believing
Whatever I might be feeling, God You are my hope
And You will be my strength

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s OK if You don’t
I’m not here for those things
The touch of Your love is enough on its own
No matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You

No matter what I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, but if not, I’ll trust You

No matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what

Songwriter: Chuck Butler, Kerrie Roberts, Tony Wood

tiramisu brownie recipe

1 package (19-21 oz) brownie mix (plus ingredients to make cake-like brownies)
1 cup milk
1/4 cup coffee liqueur or instant coffee granules
1 container (12 oz) frozen whipped topping, thawed, divided
2 packages (3.4 ounces each) cheesecake instant pudding and pie filling
20 chocolate crème-filled sandwich cookies, coarsely chopped
1/4 cup semi-sweet chocolate, grated
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon

1. Preheat oven to 350ºF. Lightly spray rectangular baker with oil. Prepare brownie mix according to package directions for cake-like brownies; pour into baker, spreading evenly. Bake 25-30 minutes or until cake tester inserted in center comes out clean. Remove to cooling rack; cool completely.

2. In a bowl, combine milk and instant coffee granules; stir until dissolved. Add half of the whipped topping and pudding mix; whisk until smooth. Coarsely chop cookies; fold into pudding mixture. Spread filling evenly over cooled brownie.

3. Attach open star tip to a decorator; fill with remaining whipped topping. Pipe diagonal rows, 1/4 inch apart, over entire surface of filling. Grate chocolate morsels over whipped topping. Sprinkle with cinnamon. Chill 30 minutes. Slice& Serve .

Yield: 20 servings or 30 sample servings

Nutrients per serving: Calories 340, Total Fat 16 g, Saturated Fat 4.5 g, Cholesterol 35 mg, Carbohydrate 44 g, Protein 3 g, Sodium 310 mg, Fiber 0 g

Source: Pampered Chef

little sister’s 30th b-day project